BREAK UP

Track: Jeremih: Break Up to Make Up
Mood: Breezy...

Break Up

We've been through this several times before,
but now I'm at my wit's end; I can't do this anymore.

They say if at first you don't succeed, try try again,
but at some point this cycle has to end.

Just when I think we're tip toeing into the gates of Heaven,
all Hell breaks loose.
Oh well, it's the truth.

Your "love" had me blind, so in my mind we were fine;
when all the while my heart was doing time.

I was hypnotized by your eyes;
& entranced by your thighs.

I had to swerve through your curves;
& held a tight grip on your hips.

But your kiss was like venom.

It paralyzed my judgment;
Made me think this was something that it wasn't.

The control you had over my heart had to end;
& before you ask, "nah!" We could never be friends.

With no conditions I accepted your every imperfection;
& now, when I look in the mirror I don't recognize my own reflection.

But I realize & recognize our many tries to revitalize;
A love...
That I don't think has a pulse anymore.

You love me in the morning & loathe me in the evening;
& by night...I don't know how you're gonna feel.

I'm at a constant conflict between my head & heart;
My heart saying, "try again" my head saying, "be smart".

I'm no actor so I'm no good at playing the fool;
& in this production of MY LIFE, heart, you lose.

After this rollercoaster of emotions we've been through;
the only one left is hate...& I can't wait to hate you.

MAKING MOVES

Mood: SUPERhuman
Track: Rudy Currence-Zion


What's up blogworld? I hope this entry finds you all in the best of health and the highest of spirits.

I've been thinking lately...I know, never a good sign lol, but I had an epiphany. I have been out of college for almost a year and still have yet to land a job in my field. My parents keep telling me that it's the economy and that things will turn around soon, but I'm tired of hearing that. I am also tired of blaming the economy. I'm sick of hanging around and temporarily accepting mediocrity until the perfect job comes along.

With that being said, I think that I need to get out and search for the perfect job. I think that if I grind hard enough and pound the pavement hard enough, I'll land the career I want. So, I'm making plans to get out and explore more options. I think I have exhausted them all here. Honestly, (at the risk of sounding arrogant and or conceited) I think I'm too big for my town. I think I have more to offer the world and staying here is holding me back. I admire my friends who move away in the search for their dreams (shout out to Puff and Will). I've never been a huge risk taker and all my moves are usually well calculated. Sprinters in races don't look back because it slows them down. I need to get in the race and not look back until I've crossed the finish line.

Graduate school. A career in Journalism. A career in Psychology. There are a lot of options I have and I don't know where to start. One thing I do know is that planning has no purpose if I don't put the plans into action. I can no longer let the fear of striking out keep me from playing the game! Batter up! (I couldn't resist lol).

Until we meet again...

Peace and love...