COMMUNICATION

COMMUNICATION

Mood: Confused
Track: Train: Hey Soul Sister

Greetings Blogworld! I hope this entry finds you in the best of health and the highest of spirits. I was just thinking about communication. I reread a post from another blog (#shoutout to FeeleTheReal.Blogspot.com)and it really got me thinking. Have we gone so deep into the pool of technology that we don't even know how to communicate effectively without out blackberrys (or blackberries, I dont really know lol), our email accounts, or our other devices.

I remember when I was a junior in college, my internship supervisor sent me a text message and it completely blew my mind. I thought to myself, "What is she doing texting?" I thought it was funny that she was so...technologically savvy. Now, as I've entered the workforce, I see it more than ever. In the office, people instant message each other when they have questions about a project. My new supervisor sends me text messages or leaves me printed notes about random issues at work. Isn't talking more convenient and effective? I can't tell your true meaning behind a text (unless you add "lol", then I know your're joking). I feel that speaking directly will eliminate a lot of potential confusion.

I was out with some friends and I received a phone call and had to step out to take it. I was gone for about ten minutes (I know that was rude of me). When I returned, one of my friends was shocked that I had a ten minute conversation. He then said, "I don't really talk on the phone. I just text and email." I think I would be insulted if I met a girl who only wanted to text or email me. At some point I think we need to have an actual conversation. Am I crazy? Am I one of those old people who just can't keep up with the latest forms of technology and communication? What do you think?

Until we meet again...

Peace and love...

SELFISHNESS

SELFISHNESS

Mood: Refreshed
Track: Live Like You're Dying: Kris Allen

What's up Blogworld? I hope this entry finds you in the best of health and the highest of spirits. I must apologize becuase my entries have been far and in between. There are so many things that I could have written about and so many things that I wanted to write about. I guess I just got caught up in the chaos of life. Regardless of the reason, I'm writing now...

Yesterday a good acquaintance of mine sent me a BBM (that's BlackBerry Message for all you non blackberry users. #teamblackberry lol). The message read, "Does it make me a bad person if you didnt have a falling out with a friend, but you just want to let the friendship go?" I responded with, "Not at all. You have to do what's best for you. All friendships aren't meant to last forever. Everyone is not going where you are going in life and you have to be careful who you let tag along."

We continued to discuss this for several hours before another friend asked me a similar question. He asked, "How do you know when you've outgrown a friend?" I didn't exactly know how to answer, but I told him about my personal experiences. The older I get and the more I learn, grow, and mature, the more I noticed that a lot of my friends weren't. As I began to do more things to further my career, some people stopped talking to me and others started talking about me. I didn't have to sever any ties, they dismissed themselves. As I get older, my inner circle gets smaller... and I couldn't be happier.

At this stage in my life, I need more in a friend than just being fun to be around. I need friends who are as passionate about life as I am. Friends who motivate me by their successes. Friends who hold me accountable for my foolish decisions. I feel like I do all those things for my friends and I may be a little selfish these days, but I want to succeed and I need friends who are going to help me get there and not just make me laugh along the way.

What do you think? How do you know when to end a frienship? Do you think my attitude is selfish?

Until we meet again...

Peace and love...

BREAK UP

Track: Jeremih: Break Up to Make Up
Mood: Breezy...

Break Up

We've been through this several times before,
but now I'm at my wit's end; I can't do this anymore.

They say if at first you don't succeed, try try again,
but at some point this cycle has to end.

Just when I think we're tip toeing into the gates of Heaven,
all Hell breaks loose.
Oh well, it's the truth.

Your "love" had me blind, so in my mind we were fine;
when all the while my heart was doing time.

I was hypnotized by your eyes;
& entranced by your thighs.

I had to swerve through your curves;
& held a tight grip on your hips.

But your kiss was like venom.

It paralyzed my judgment;
Made me think this was something that it wasn't.

The control you had over my heart had to end;
& before you ask, "nah!" We could never be friends.

With no conditions I accepted your every imperfection;
& now, when I look in the mirror I don't recognize my own reflection.

But I realize & recognize our many tries to revitalize;
A love...
That I don't think has a pulse anymore.

You love me in the morning & loathe me in the evening;
& by night...I don't know how you're gonna feel.

I'm at a constant conflict between my head & heart;
My heart saying, "try again" my head saying, "be smart".

I'm no actor so I'm no good at playing the fool;
& in this production of MY LIFE, heart, you lose.

After this rollercoaster of emotions we've been through;
the only one left is hate...& I can't wait to hate you.

MAKING MOVES

Mood: SUPERhuman
Track: Rudy Currence-Zion


What's up blogworld? I hope this entry finds you all in the best of health and the highest of spirits.

I've been thinking lately...I know, never a good sign lol, but I had an epiphany. I have been out of college for almost a year and still have yet to land a job in my field. My parents keep telling me that it's the economy and that things will turn around soon, but I'm tired of hearing that. I am also tired of blaming the economy. I'm sick of hanging around and temporarily accepting mediocrity until the perfect job comes along.

With that being said, I think that I need to get out and search for the perfect job. I think that if I grind hard enough and pound the pavement hard enough, I'll land the career I want. So, I'm making plans to get out and explore more options. I think I have exhausted them all here. Honestly, (at the risk of sounding arrogant and or conceited) I think I'm too big for my town. I think I have more to offer the world and staying here is holding me back. I admire my friends who move away in the search for their dreams (shout out to Puff and Will). I've never been a huge risk taker and all my moves are usually well calculated. Sprinters in races don't look back because it slows them down. I need to get in the race and not look back until I've crossed the finish line.

Graduate school. A career in Journalism. A career in Psychology. There are a lot of options I have and I don't know where to start. One thing I do know is that planning has no purpose if I don't put the plans into action. I can no longer let the fear of striking out keep me from playing the game! Batter up! (I couldn't resist lol).

Until we meet again...

Peace and love...

THE BENEDICTION

MOOD: CONFUSED
TRACK: RYAN LESLIE: HOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE

The Benediction

Greeting all! I truly hope this post finds you all in the highest of spirits and the best of health.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I've come to the conclusion that I have to do what's best for me. I know it sounds a bit selfish, but if I don't look out for me, who will? It's sad that people enter your life and cause chaos and confusion, but they are there for that purpose...learn from them. I look at those types and know exactly what NOT to do and how NOT to act.

Some people enter your life and stay for a season while others stay for a lifetime. I've only met a few that have stayed for longer than a season, but everyone of them has served their purpose. I just pray that I don't make the mistake of making seasonal friends lifelong ones because in the longrun, they're not meant to be.

There are always wolves disguised as sheep that try to bring you down...I have gained the ability to spot them out. I know who's down for me and who's not. I'm re-evaluating some people and some things. If I cut you off, don't feel bad and please don't be mad. You were only meant for a season and that season, just like autumn, has come to an end...

It's time to give the benediction...

Until we meet again...

Peace & love...

Independence Day

MOOD: BLAH

TRACK: ALICIA KEYS- DRAGON DAYS

INDEPENDENCE DAY

Greetings Blogworld! I hope this entry finds you in the best of health and the highest of spirits.

Happy 4th of July Everyone!! Hope you all had fun hanging out with family, attending cookouts, and watching fireworks. I didn't do any of the fore mentioned things. I was at home in my room almost all day. It's not that I didn't want to partake in any of the festivities going on, it's just that I had something more to celebrate. I was celebrating being alone. See, what most people don't understand is that there is a difference between being alone and being lonely. I am far from lonely. What better way to celebrate being alone, then...well being alone?

I have grown to love my own company and I think it's important, especially if I expect others to enjoy my company. How can I expect them to appreciate my company if I don't, so I took the time to hang with myself.

I stayed home and watched movies, wrote in my transcript, and just enjoyed the silence. Sometimes you just need a lazy day to sit back, relax, and do some refelction. To some, this sounds boring, but I had a great day. I hope that you all can take out the time to enjoy time alone. Take a lazy day for yourself and do nothing.

Until we meet again...

Peace and love...

NEW DAY

MOOD: REFRESHED
TRACK: RUDY CURRENCE-HERE WITH YOU

NEW DAY

Good day blog world! I hope this entry finds you in the best of health and the highest of spirits.

I woke up this morning in my usual early morning mood...irritable. To say I'm not a morning person would be an understatement. If I could sleep every day til noon, I probably would. So, when i had to get up at 6am in preparation for work, I was less than thrilled. But, when I was on my way to work I saw the sun rising. It's amazing how little things can completely change your perspective.

Every day is a new day. I know what you're thinking. Duh! But it's so much more than just a new day. It's a new opportunity. A new chance to right a wrong, pay back a debt, get over a grudge, meet someone new, or just celebrate the day. Take advantage.

until we meet again,

peace & love...